Ponder

Tonight I am up as needed to nurse my new precious baby girl. I can't sleep tonight. Something is keeping me awake, though I know I need rest desperatley yet.. sleep evades me. I re-read my dear friends blog about the loss of their sweet 9 day old newborn babygirl, I can't help but scoop up my new 3 week old babygirl in my arms and hold her tightly as I read. I think about how.. how come she survived in the NICU when little Molly did not...